I think this blog is going to be my source of rants over the next several weeks. For all those who are reading my ongoing blog, please don't think that I'm this angry, upset, pissed off, at life all the time. This is just a VERY stressful VERY emotional time for me.
Top 8 Things Pissing me the Fuck Off right now:
1) The move - let's just say #1 is the move!
2) The packing - nuff said.
3) My husband procrastinating.
4) My husband needing reminders for everything
5) Discovering 2 wonderful friends to late - I'm leaving!!!
6) Work - I love my job, I really really do, but this week has been HELL.
7) My therapist knowing me all to well and being right.
8) Not being able to see my therapist of 3 years anymore in 3 week.
Since we're doing that, why not do the 8 Things that make me Remotely Happy at the Moment:
1) Barbara and Meghan - the thoughts of leaving you two makes me want to cry.
2) Work - I love my team. How am I going to get by without you there to lift me up with your silly dances and big goofy smiles when it's a stress filled day?
3) Husband - for cuddles when I need them.
4) The huge bowl of ice cream I'm eating right now. (No Sugar Added Edy's)
5) The Angry Pharmacist (found through L's blog), for making me laugh tonight.
6) My Therapist - for knowing what I need and what needs to be said to make me think a bit better. Even when I don't like hearing it.
7) My family - for calling me, talking to me, lending advice.
8) My snakes - they always make me happy. They're my reptiloves.
Surprisingly writing that stuff out actually helped. Shock of all shockers. I've wanted to have a good cry for over a week now. The tears won't come. Can my body really withstanding holding this back? In 2 weeks when I have my last day in the office I know as well as everyone else that I'm going to completely break down. I had to emotionally/physically restrain myself from doing so when my boss and I talked about it last week. He asked how to move was coming, I looked up and him in all innocence and said, "not to well right now - I don't want to go", then proceeded to tear up, turn my head, and not speak so I didn't completely break down. He offered a few words of encouragement as a good boss who's known you for 5 years can do and moved on. The words and the moving along were both appreciated. The next day he sent an appreciation email about me to the team expressing how much he appreciated what I've taken on recently on top of my standard duties. I proceeded to quickly get up and go for a walk outside. Sure - I can cry like a baby while I'm at work but not at home? What the hell? One place I can't for work ethic reasons, the other place I can't physically.
I tried to sleep without medication last night. BEEEEEEEEEEEEP!! WRONG ANSWER!!! I slept like hell. There's a huge part of me that doesn't want to take the medication again tonight. I hate, loathe, and detest feeling reliant on a medication. Especially one that has instant reactions. I know it sounds ridiculous, but its the way I feel about it. I'm the same way about pain meds most of the time. (migraines are a huge exception - I'll take anything in that case).
After speaking with Meghan the other day I think overall right now I just feel like I'm taking on way to much. I think about what has to be done in the next 3 weeks and a literally, actual physical literally feeling nauseated. :( I have to say goodbye to friends, I have to packup at work, I have to packup at home, I need to talk to the utility companies in FL again, I need to talk and meet the movers, I need to make sure the house is completely ready to go, I need to finish planning our 'going away party' that I decided to host this Saturday (am I nuts!?!), I need to make sure we have help getting things down from storage, I need to visit a couple of friends 1 last time for now. Not to mention everything that must be done once getting to Florida. Dave needs to see specialists, find a job, arrange visitation with the boys, work out custody plans -- of course this all means that I'll be arranging for all of that to be done. I need to set up a home office, unpack, get the house organized, look for some form of furniture, and try not have a complete nervous breakdown. Nancy (therapist) agrees with Meghan, I'm trying to take on to much. My response -- who the hell else is going to do it!??! It has to be done. It all has to be done. AND .. even if I try to delegate some of it, I'll cause as much stress to myself worrying if its being done right.
If life is a class, I'm currently getting an "A" for effort but an "F" for feeling like the world is falling and failing around me.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Saturday, August 9, 2008
Insomnia
I've suffered from insomnia on and off for most of my life. There are times it happens, 'just because', but the majority of the time it's stress, pressure, or extreme sadness. Pretty much when anything big is going on or about to happen.
Que move to Florida - Que insomnia that started about a week ago. I was lucky if I was getting more than 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night. 3 or 4 hours of sleep equals a very bitchy, moody, up and down depressed, sometimes angry for no reason person.
I saw my therapist on Wednesday and confessed that I hadn't been taking Lorezapam to help getting to sleep. Lorazepam is an almost instant acting antianxiety strong sedative. In general if I'm starting to have an anxiety attack I take one. In previous years I took 2 to help me sleep through most of the night. Anyhow, I explained to my therapist of 3 years that I was worried about getting addicted. She laughed and told me how silly I was being. I finally agreed that yeah, I was being silly aboout it.
So Wednesday night I took 1 pill, no help really, I got to sleep, didn't stay asleep. Thursday night I skipped again, what can I say, I'm stubborn! Last night I was feeling kind of desperate as it had been a really bad day and it had been more than a week. I took 2. I want to sleep around 1am, woke up about 9:30am. HOORAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!! I feel better this morning than I have all week.
Moral of this story: STOP BEING STUBBORN!!!
I probably won't take it nightly up to the move, but likely a couple times a week if the pattern of no sleep remains the same. What's always funny to me is how itty bitty tiny winny the pills are for Lorazepam. 1 pill is a dose of 0.5mgs. I seem to be fairly sensitive to the med. I'm not sure how others handle the drug, but I'm sure there are others out there that are on higher doses to help them out.
Anyhow .. I'm thrilled I got the sleep because today Dave's family is treating us by going to Fenway Park!!! WOO!!! We wont be watching the Red Sox, instead we'll be watching the AAA Team, for those who dont know, in general these men are the up and coming Red Sox team. We have amazing seats, 4 rows behind home plate! Thank you Jim!!! (Dave's brother). I've never been to Fenway or a live baseball game so this will be a really awesome treat for me. :)
I've got to go hit the shower and head downstairs. Perhaps I'll write after.
Que move to Florida - Que insomnia that started about a week ago. I was lucky if I was getting more than 3 or 4 hours of sleep a night. 3 or 4 hours of sleep equals a very bitchy, moody, up and down depressed, sometimes angry for no reason person.
I saw my therapist on Wednesday and confessed that I hadn't been taking Lorezapam to help getting to sleep. Lorazepam is an almost instant acting antianxiety strong sedative. In general if I'm starting to have an anxiety attack I take one. In previous years I took 2 to help me sleep through most of the night. Anyhow, I explained to my therapist of 3 years that I was worried about getting addicted. She laughed and told me how silly I was being. I finally agreed that yeah, I was being silly aboout it.
So Wednesday night I took 1 pill, no help really, I got to sleep, didn't stay asleep. Thursday night I skipped again, what can I say, I'm stubborn! Last night I was feeling kind of desperate as it had been a really bad day and it had been more than a week. I took 2. I want to sleep around 1am, woke up about 9:30am. HOORAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!! I feel better this morning than I have all week.
Moral of this story: STOP BEING STUBBORN!!!
I probably won't take it nightly up to the move, but likely a couple times a week if the pattern of no sleep remains the same. What's always funny to me is how itty bitty tiny winny the pills are for Lorazepam. 1 pill is a dose of 0.5mgs. I seem to be fairly sensitive to the med. I'm not sure how others handle the drug, but I'm sure there are others out there that are on higher doses to help them out.
Anyhow .. I'm thrilled I got the sleep because today Dave's family is treating us by going to Fenway Park!!! WOO!!! We wont be watching the Red Sox, instead we'll be watching the AAA Team, for those who dont know, in general these men are the up and coming Red Sox team. We have amazing seats, 4 rows behind home plate! Thank you Jim!!! (Dave's brother). I've never been to Fenway or a live baseball game so this will be a really awesome treat for me. :)
I've got to go hit the shower and head downstairs. Perhaps I'll write after.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Hard to let go
I've written a little bit about some of the things I'm losing by moving to Florida, but have done my best on and off not to dwell on it. I think the closer the move comes the more freaked out I'm going to get. As some people know, I really don't do big change well, at all. I'm feeling the loss today. We just had 9 new hires start in my department and for the next 2 weeks I get to do my favorite part of my job. Teach and train! There is SO much information packed into the first 2 weeks of an examiners life and it can be a very stressful time for a new hire. I love making it fun for them, I love keeping them interested, I love seeing their faces light up when something clicks, I love answering their questions, I love seeing them progress.. I really love it all. Well, I won't be teaching many classes as a telecommuter and today it sunk in and really hurt. The next 2 weeks will be wonderful at work; but it's going to also be a fairly constant reminder of what will be changing. *sigh*
Ok, enough of that, yes I'm a bit down, but here's a questionnaire I stole to distract my mind and give me something to do before bed.
What time did you get up this morning? 6:50am - get ready - 40mins to work
Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds, most definitely diamonds. I don't have many, but love the couple I have.
What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Mummy 3 this weekend. It was a fun and funny watch.
What is your favorite TV show? Right now, "So you Think you can Dance". Cheezy, yeah, BUT I love dancing and I love watching people dance. When the it's the right Season my favorite show is ER, but close runners are House and Grey's Anatomy.
What do you usually have for breakfast? 16oz iced decaf coffee. Fresh Egg white omelet with spinach, mushrooms, tomatoes, cheese, ham. It lasts me the morning and into the early afternoon. $3.50 for both at my cafeteria at work. Yum!
What is your middle name? May. Love it. Named after both my grandma's. Rachel and May.
What food do you dislike? There's not a whole lot I strongly dislike, but I'm not a big fan of liver, lima beans, or peas.
What is you favorite CD at the moment? Been listening to Avril Lavinge (sp) and Evanensence recently.
What kind of car do you drive? 2003 Toyata Matrix - it's been great to us. No complaints.
Favorite sandwich? Rueben has always been my favorite, but right now not eating something like that.
What characteristic do you despise? People who think it's okay to lie. Any lie is a problem, any lie is a mistake, I have huge trust issues. Even if you think it's going to hurt someone, tell the freaking truth for gawds sake. In the end, it works out better.
Favorite item of clothing? Capri's right now. Cause I could never wear them before. :)
If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? LARGE toss up between Ireland and Thailand. I'm desperate to go to both.
Where would you retire to? Not sure. Somewhere close to family I think.
What was your most recent memorable birthday? Right now I'd say my most recent one was the most memorable. My memory is pretty well shot and messed up so most recent things are generally the most memorable. lol. Woke up to two huge bouqets of flowers on either side of the bed. Dave's family threw me a really nice birthday dinner home cooked by his brother. They bought me all kinds of presents - they totally went over the top. It was my first birthday with my family-in-laws and they made it really special. Dave got me the diamond studs that I wanted so badly. =)
Furthest place you are sending this? Not really sending it to anyone but I suppose anyone could read my blog from all over the world.
When is your birthday? May 25th
Morning person or a night person? Night person. I hate mornings.
What is your shoe size? 9ish, give or take 1/2 size depending on the maker of the shoe.
Pets? Two snakes, ball pythons. Lucien and Cynkane.
Any exciting news you’d like to share with us? The biggest excitement going on in life is I'm moving to Largo, FL in about 3 weeks. Exciting but scary as hell.
What did you want to be when you were little? Vet or horse trainer. Vet - stopped school at 2 years. Horse trainer - I've worked with several horses and riders, but it's not my profession. I'll be starting that up again in Florida which is something huge I'm looking forward to.
What is your favorite flower? Wildflowers. I looove all kinds of wildflowers. Standard flowers are Roses and Lilies. A mix of all 3 is always perfect.
What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to seeing? September 2nd. The move will be over and I can start to adjust to the new life instead of stressing over whats to come.
What are you listening to right now? Law and Order (I love the show too L!!!)
What was the last thing you ate? Tuna salad with rye triscuits. Tuna had onions, celery and walnuts chopped and mixed in.
Do you wish on stars? Sometimes. Once in awhile a passing by wish.
If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Midnight Blue - my favorite color. :)
How is the weather right now? I think it's around 60 outside, it's been a fairly cool day.
Last person you spoke to on the phone? My sister, Ris.
Favorite soft drink? Sometimes I'll still sip at a tiny bit of Diet Coke, one of my favs before surgery. Now my favorites are crystal light and sugar-free cocoa.
Favorite restaurant? Not Your Average Joes. They so rock. They have huge portions though. Now days when we go out to eat we generally do mexican.
Favorite color? Blue
What was your favorite toy as a child? Horse models of all types. :)
Summer or winter? Spring. Summer is too hot. Winter is too cold. =P
Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
Coffee or tea? COFFEE!!!!!!
When was the last time you cried? Today - saw my therapist, talked a lot about being so stressed recently and not sleeping.
What is under your bed? Not really sure. I know a couple of books, dunno what else.
What did you do last night? Watched TV. Slept.
Salty or sweet? Both. Right now, I'm enjoying dried blueberries, cranberries, and almonds. <------- agree="" completely="" i="" strong="" this.="" with="">
How many keys on your key ring? 3
How many years at your current job? Just celebrated my 5 years as well. July. :)
Favorite day of the week? Saturday.
Do you make friends easily? I wish I did. However, the friends I do have, my true friends, generally stay friends for quite a long time. :)
Ok, enough of that, yes I'm a bit down, but here's a questionnaire I stole to distract my mind and give me something to do before bed.
What time did you get up this morning? 6:50am - get ready - 40mins to work
Diamonds or pearls? Diamonds, most definitely diamonds. I don't have many, but love the couple I have.
What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Mummy 3 this weekend. It was a fun and funny watch.
What is your favorite TV show? Right now, "So you Think you can Dance". Cheezy, yeah, BUT I love dancing and I love watching people dance. When the it's the right Season my favorite show is ER, but close runners are House and Grey's Anatomy.
What do you usually have for breakfast? 16oz iced decaf coffee. Fresh Egg white omelet with spinach, mushrooms, tomatoes, cheese, ham. It lasts me the morning and into the early afternoon. $3.50 for both at my cafeteria at work. Yum!
What is your middle name? May. Love it. Named after both my grandma's. Rachel and May.
What food do you dislike? There's not a whole lot I strongly dislike, but I'm not a big fan of liver, lima beans, or peas.
What is you favorite CD at the moment? Been listening to Avril Lavinge (sp) and Evanensence recently.
What kind of car do you drive? 2003 Toyata Matrix - it's been great to us. No complaints.
Favorite sandwich? Rueben has always been my favorite, but right now not eating something like that.
What characteristic do you despise? People who think it's okay to lie. Any lie is a problem, any lie is a mistake, I have huge trust issues. Even if you think it's going to hurt someone, tell the freaking truth for gawds sake. In the end, it works out better.
Favorite item of clothing? Capri's right now. Cause I could never wear them before. :)
If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? LARGE toss up between Ireland and Thailand. I'm desperate to go to both.
Where would you retire to? Not sure. Somewhere close to family I think.
What was your most recent memorable birthday? Right now I'd say my most recent one was the most memorable. My memory is pretty well shot and messed up so most recent things are generally the most memorable. lol. Woke up to two huge bouqets of flowers on either side of the bed. Dave's family threw me a really nice birthday dinner home cooked by his brother. They bought me all kinds of presents - they totally went over the top. It was my first birthday with my family-in-laws and they made it really special. Dave got me the diamond studs that I wanted so badly. =)
Furthest place you are sending this? Not really sending it to anyone but I suppose anyone could read my blog from all over the world.
When is your birthday? May 25th
Morning person or a night person? Night person. I hate mornings.
What is your shoe size? 9ish, give or take 1/2 size depending on the maker of the shoe.
Pets? Two snakes, ball pythons. Lucien and Cynkane.
Any exciting news you’d like to share with us? The biggest excitement going on in life is I'm moving to Largo, FL in about 3 weeks. Exciting but scary as hell.
What did you want to be when you were little? Vet or horse trainer. Vet - stopped school at 2 years. Horse trainer - I've worked with several horses and riders, but it's not my profession. I'll be starting that up again in Florida which is something huge I'm looking forward to.
What is your favorite flower? Wildflowers. I looove all kinds of wildflowers. Standard flowers are Roses and Lilies. A mix of all 3 is always perfect.
What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to seeing? September 2nd. The move will be over and I can start to adjust to the new life instead of stressing over whats to come.
What are you listening to right now? Law and Order (I love the show too L!!!)
What was the last thing you ate? Tuna salad with rye triscuits. Tuna had onions, celery and walnuts chopped and mixed in.
Do you wish on stars? Sometimes. Once in awhile a passing by wish.
If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Midnight Blue - my favorite color. :)
How is the weather right now? I think it's around 60 outside, it's been a fairly cool day.
Last person you spoke to on the phone? My sister, Ris.
Favorite soft drink? Sometimes I'll still sip at a tiny bit of Diet Coke, one of my favs before surgery. Now my favorites are crystal light and sugar-free cocoa.
Favorite restaurant? Not Your Average Joes. They so rock. They have huge portions though. Now days when we go out to eat we generally do mexican.
Favorite color? Blue
What was your favorite toy as a child? Horse models of all types. :)
Summer or winter? Spring. Summer is too hot. Winter is too cold. =P
Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
Coffee or tea? COFFEE!!!!!!
When was the last time you cried? Today - saw my therapist, talked a lot about being so stressed recently and not sleeping.
What is under your bed? Not really sure. I know a couple of books, dunno what else.
What did you do last night? Watched TV. Slept.
Salty or sweet? Both. Right now, I'm enjoying dried blueberries, cranberries, and almonds. <------- agree="" completely="" i="" strong="" this.="" with="">
How many keys on your key ring? 3
How many years at your current job? Just celebrated my 5 years as well. July. :)
Favorite day of the week? Saturday.
Do you make friends easily? I wish I did. However, the friends I do have, my true friends, generally stay friends for quite a long time. :)
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Just another day
It's for the most part been an uneventful weekend. More than anything Dave and I have been continuing to work at getting ready for our move. Yesterday we finished going through every stack, scrap, box, file folder, etc of papers that have been stacking up and sorted them all out. After about 5 hours of shredding, organizing, and writing tabs for file folders things are for the most part put in the places they should be. (yeah - we really let it get that far behind). Another time after we move I'd like to make a project of going through each category and organizing things by dates - but that isn't an urgent priority.
Today we finished going through all of the boxes from Dave's old storage unit. Thank GOODNESS! .. What a crazy insane process. I'd say that we either threw away or gave away a good half of what was there. About 70% of what we're keeping is packed and ready to go. The rest needs to be put in boxes and organized. The boxing tends to be more of my speciality. :) However, currently we need to pick up a few more.
We had to call the moving company and add on several more boxes to our total along with a few other misc. things I had forgotten. (sewing machine / ironing board) The cost of using a moving company makes my stomach churn, but I know in the long run it'll be worth it. It's about $600-800 more than what it would cost for us to rent a truck, drive the truck, and load/unload everything ourselves. The extra $600-800 is really worth not having to haul our furniture and boxes down 2 flights of stairs (current apt) and up another flight of stairs. (apt we're going to). Plus this way we can feel more relaxed about stopping by some friends houses along the way down to Florida.
It's amazing, the move is literally only a few weeks away and some part of my mind has still not completely wrapped around that this is really happening. I think that I'm taking in as much as I can at once -- perhaps to remain sane? Yeah, I think so.
Weight loss is slow but steady. Each week I generally lose at least a little bit. I have stalls here and there, but overall its evening out to 1-2 pounds a week. I know there's probably more that I could be doing, but with the stress recently it's been hard to concentrate on.
Tonight we went and saw Mummy 3, it was a fun watch. Nothing epic, but definitely fun. I love action flicks of all kinds and I like that the Mummy movies include a lot of humor. They've all been fun watches. One of Dave and I's favorite pass times is going out to the movies and we do it a LOT. In the last month we've also seen Dark Knight (amazingly good) and Hancock (we really enjoyed it). If something is out that we want to see we generally go each weekend or every other weekend. I get discount passes from work so it ends up being a fairly cheap date for us at $6 a person. It'll be a bit more inconvienant once we move but I'll still be able to mail a check up and have them mail passes down.
Speaking of work, there's a lot happening on that front too. I've been travelling to our offices in Portsmouth, NH and Windsor, CT quite a bit. We're getting my system at work all setup with the appropriate security software for me to take the computer off site. Papers to sign saying I'll continue being the great employee I am when working from home. ;) .. mostly legal stuff. Meetings with the bosses. Meetings with my team. I think it's actually very likely that leaving work is going to be the hardest part about this move for me. I spend the majority of my time at work! .. My team .. my work friends .. the people I hang out with at the bar afterwards. It makes me heart ache to leave it behind. No, it's not an "I think", it's an I know; leaving the people in my workplace will be by far the hardest thing - most of my friendships in Boston have been made there. Ok, enough of that - no getting teary at the moment. Gads I'm weepy recently. At least I tear up a lot. The actual crying hasn't happened quite yet. (oh it will..)
Overall other than being insanely busy life has been good. Dave and I have planned a trip to Six Flags for tomorrow. This is our 3rd time trying to go. Mother Nature seems to have it in for us. The weather always says it'll be gorgeous and BAM the day comes that we're going and it's all thunder and lightning. It was supposed to be 100% sunny tomorrow but now it's showing scattered storms between 1pm-6pm. Scattered storms we can deal with but we'll see when we checkout the forecast in the morning. Of course Tuesday shows sunny all day. *eyeroll* The weather has been nuts this summer. Thunder and lightning probably 4 to 5 out of 7 days a week constantly. I love storms .. so I don't mind it. It's just crazy how much it's been storming the last 1-2 months.
Anyhow, I've been babbling on for awhile now. Signing off to try and find sleep. (it's been eluding me recently)
Today we finished going through all of the boxes from Dave's old storage unit. Thank GOODNESS! .. What a crazy insane process. I'd say that we either threw away or gave away a good half of what was there. About 70% of what we're keeping is packed and ready to go. The rest needs to be put in boxes and organized. The boxing tends to be more of my speciality. :) However, currently we need to pick up a few more.
We had to call the moving company and add on several more boxes to our total along with a few other misc. things I had forgotten. (sewing machine / ironing board) The cost of using a moving company makes my stomach churn, but I know in the long run it'll be worth it. It's about $600-800 more than what it would cost for us to rent a truck, drive the truck, and load/unload everything ourselves. The extra $600-800 is really worth not having to haul our furniture and boxes down 2 flights of stairs (current apt) and up another flight of stairs. (apt we're going to). Plus this way we can feel more relaxed about stopping by some friends houses along the way down to Florida.
It's amazing, the move is literally only a few weeks away and some part of my mind has still not completely wrapped around that this is really happening. I think that I'm taking in as much as I can at once -- perhaps to remain sane? Yeah, I think so.
Weight loss is slow but steady. Each week I generally lose at least a little bit. I have stalls here and there, but overall its evening out to 1-2 pounds a week. I know there's probably more that I could be doing, but with the stress recently it's been hard to concentrate on.
Tonight we went and saw Mummy 3, it was a fun watch. Nothing epic, but definitely fun. I love action flicks of all kinds and I like that the Mummy movies include a lot of humor. They've all been fun watches. One of Dave and I's favorite pass times is going out to the movies and we do it a LOT. In the last month we've also seen Dark Knight (amazingly good) and Hancock (we really enjoyed it). If something is out that we want to see we generally go each weekend or every other weekend. I get discount passes from work so it ends up being a fairly cheap date for us at $6 a person. It'll be a bit more inconvienant once we move but I'll still be able to mail a check up and have them mail passes down.
Speaking of work, there's a lot happening on that front too. I've been travelling to our offices in Portsmouth, NH and Windsor, CT quite a bit. We're getting my system at work all setup with the appropriate security software for me to take the computer off site. Papers to sign saying I'll continue being the great employee I am when working from home. ;) .. mostly legal stuff. Meetings with the bosses. Meetings with my team. I think it's actually very likely that leaving work is going to be the hardest part about this move for me. I spend the majority of my time at work! .. My team .. my work friends .. the people I hang out with at the bar afterwards. It makes me heart ache to leave it behind. No, it's not an "I think", it's an I know; leaving the people in my workplace will be by far the hardest thing - most of my friendships in Boston have been made there. Ok, enough of that - no getting teary at the moment. Gads I'm weepy recently. At least I tear up a lot. The actual crying hasn't happened quite yet. (oh it will..)
Overall other than being insanely busy life has been good. Dave and I have planned a trip to Six Flags for tomorrow. This is our 3rd time trying to go. Mother Nature seems to have it in for us. The weather always says it'll be gorgeous and BAM the day comes that we're going and it's all thunder and lightning. It was supposed to be 100% sunny tomorrow but now it's showing scattered storms between 1pm-6pm. Scattered storms we can deal with but we'll see when we checkout the forecast in the morning. Of course Tuesday shows sunny all day. *eyeroll* The weather has been nuts this summer. Thunder and lightning probably 4 to 5 out of 7 days a week constantly. I love storms .. so I don't mind it. It's just crazy how much it's been storming the last 1-2 months.
Anyhow, I've been babbling on for awhile now. Signing off to try and find sleep. (it's been eluding me recently)
Sunday, July 27, 2008
I'm back! .. and bored now.
The pool party was fun - I love to swim so being in a pool for a couple hours was great. All the gals are a blast. We took a new pictures but I haven't downloaded them yet. Maybe that'll be something new to do. Does anyone have the problem when uploading pictures to the blog that it always sticks it in the very top??? No matter where I want it?? It's quite annoying. I can't move the picture, so then I have to move my text.
Stole this questionarre from one of my gals blogs. :) Thanks darlin'! :)
1) What do you add to your coffee? Non-Fat milk, splenda. Iced sometimes. Decaf all the time now. My favorite when I have the money is a Skinny, Decaf Cinnamon-Dolce Latte from Starbucks. Oh my yum.
2) What are you reading now? Book 5 of the Wheel-Of-Time series.
3) Do you own a gun? Nope. Dave has a shotgun, but it's not currently functional - it was his grandfathers.
4) Are you registered to vote? Actually no. *ducks* I've never registered for a ridiculous reason. Never been called for Jury Duty or any other government thing. I will agree with Obama in '08!! .. and he will likely be what finally makes me register.
5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Most of the time not anymore. Used to though.
6) What do you think of hot dogs? Eh.. like them once in awhile, but not usually.
7) Favorite Christmas Song? Silver Bells and White Christmas. Love them.
8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Hot cocoa or coffee
9) Can you do push ups? HAHAHA! ..no.
10) What was the name of your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Uhmmmm.. first serious one, Brandon.
11) What’s your favorite piece of jewelery? My engagement ring. Platinum Tacori Ring, large dark blue sapphire round cut in the center with square cut (princess) diamonds lining the sides. Filigree on the sides of the ring. Dave did good. (although I did pick it out .. hehe).
12) Favorite hobby? Horseback riding, thank gawd I'm starting up again in Florida. Reading. Swimming. Scrapbooking. I can't pick just one. :)
13) Do you work with people who idolize you? Not really? Maybe? I kind of think if they idolized me it'd be odd. Most of my team really like me though. :)
14) Do you have ADD? Nope.
15) What’s one trait that you hate about yourself? Lack of self confidence when it comes to being around men I don't know. Drives me nuts. I'm getting better though.
16) What’s your Middle name? May
17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? My middle name is my Grandmothers name. (see last question). Answering this question. Honey is sleeping.
18). Name 3 things you bought yesterday? Uhmmmmm.. thinking. Oh .. we went out to lunch. So, a beer, a margarita, and burrito. (not all for me).
19) Name 3 beverages you regularly drink? Iced coffee, crystal light, other random pre-flavored waters.
20) Current worry right now? Our move.
21) What side do you dress to? I'm not sure what this means either? If it's supposed to be one size?? Currently about an 18.
22) Favorite place to be? Home usually. Otherwise out with friends.
23) How did you bring in the New Year? Uhm.. crap. I can't remember. We did something ..
24) Where would you like to go? Arizona. I'd like to see my Mom, sister and nephew right now. I miss them all the time.
25) Name three people who will complete this? L already did, so no one else most likely. :) Unless I post it on MySpace too.
26) Whose answers do you want to read the most? Already read them. :) On L's
27) What color shirt are you wearing? hehe.. none. I'm usually a nudist when I'm at home. lol.
28). Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Ewww.. no. Definitely not. We have two sets of 1000 count sheets we got from our Wedding. LOVE them.
29) Can you whistle? Yep, but not loudly.
30) Favorite colors(s)? Blue Blue Blue! :) Silver and Black as well.
31) Could you be a pirate? What a funny question. Sure! ... Why not! As long as I don't have to go into water I can't see the bottom of.
(side thought -- we interupt this questionnaire to say HOLY CRAP we're having a massive thunderstorm!!!!!! It ROCKS!!! ..
32) What songs do you sing in the shower? None that I can think of
33) Favorite girls name? I like Samantha a lot and I've always loved Rachel and Rebekah. :) Go figure .. mine and my sister's name.
34) Favorite boy’s name? Carter, Connor, Keith are a few.
35) What’s in your pocket right now? No pockets - I'm nekkid.
36) Last thing that made you laugh? Getting stuck in a little kids innertube this afternoon. LOL .. I just HAAAD to squeeze my shoulders through it one at a time. Dave had to pull it off. lmao. I'm such a silly dork sometimes.
37) Best bed sheets as a child? No clue. I think I had all solid colored sheets.
38). Worst injury you’ve ever had? Uhm, wow. I've had a few. The most painful was probably turning my ankle. I hairline fractured the ankle bone and tore two ligaments or tendons.. don't remember which now. I've broken several bones.. but tearing the tissue was by far the worst pain I've ever ever felt. My ankle still isn't the same. If I step wrong it turns over a bit still. Very frustrating. :P
39) Do you love where you live? No, it's way to expensive and I don't like the snow. I do love the people that I'm with around here though.
40) How many TVs do you have in your house? One in our apartment. Other's throughout our family's house below us.
41) Who is your loudest friend? Literally loud? Probably Dave. He's shy at times, but he get's literally loud a lot of the time when he talks. It's a habit formed because of my father-in-law being partially deaf.
42) How many dogs do you have? None. :( We're hoping to get one when we move to Florida though! :)
43) Does anyone have a crush on you? Dunno. Possibly?
44) What are the most fun things you ever did? Hmm.. camping with 1000's of people in Lumberton, MS. (SCA thing each Spring - best times ever). Flashing in New Orleans. :) LOL. With my lovely husband and his big burly friend to protect me. Deep sea fishing on our honeymoon. (even though we didn't catch anything). Probably many other things, but I can't think of others right now.
45) What are your favorite books? I dont have any huge favorites. I read a lot, but usually only read a book once. I did love the Gunslinger series from Stephen King - even though the very end kind of sucked. And a sci-fi series that was called Mallorean I believe.. that was an awesome series that I never wanted to end.
46) What is your favorite candy? Dark Chocolate now. It's one of the only ones I can eat. Preop, Twix.
47) Favorite Team? Patriots, Red Sox, and Mariners
48). What songs do you want played at your funeral? Up to my family on the songs or if they want to do a funeral. They know that I want to be cremated though and dumped somewhere that there are horses.
49) What were you doing at 12 AM? Sleeping
50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? What time is it?
Thunderstorm is over now ... booooooooo!.. I love storms.
Stole this questionarre from one of my gals blogs. :) Thanks darlin'! :)
1) What do you add to your coffee? Non-Fat milk, splenda. Iced sometimes. Decaf all the time now. My favorite when I have the money is a Skinny, Decaf Cinnamon-Dolce Latte from Starbucks. Oh my yum.
2) What are you reading now? Book 5 of the Wheel-Of-Time series.
3) Do you own a gun? Nope. Dave has a shotgun, but it's not currently functional - it was his grandfathers.
4) Are you registered to vote? Actually no. *ducks* I've never registered for a ridiculous reason. Never been called for Jury Duty or any other government thing. I will agree with Obama in '08!! .. and he will likely be what finally makes me register.
5) Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? Most of the time not anymore. Used to though.
6) What do you think of hot dogs? Eh.. like them once in awhile, but not usually.
7) Favorite Christmas Song? Silver Bells and White Christmas. Love them.
8) What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Hot cocoa or coffee
9) Can you do push ups? HAHAHA! ..no.
10) What was the name of your first boyfriend/girlfriend? Uhmmmm.. first serious one, Brandon.
11) What’s your favorite piece of jewelery? My engagement ring. Platinum Tacori Ring, large dark blue sapphire round cut in the center with square cut (princess) diamonds lining the sides. Filigree on the sides of the ring. Dave did good. (although I did pick it out .. hehe).
12) Favorite hobby? Horseback riding, thank gawd I'm starting up again in Florida. Reading. Swimming. Scrapbooking. I can't pick just one. :)
13) Do you work with people who idolize you? Not really? Maybe? I kind of think if they idolized me it'd be odd. Most of my team really like me though. :)
14) Do you have ADD? Nope.
15) What’s one trait that you hate about yourself? Lack of self confidence when it comes to being around men I don't know. Drives me nuts. I'm getting better though.
16) What’s your Middle name? May
17) Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? My middle name is my Grandmothers name. (see last question). Answering this question. Honey is sleeping.
18). Name 3 things you bought yesterday? Uhmmmmm.. thinking. Oh .. we went out to lunch. So, a beer, a margarita, and burrito. (not all for me).
19) Name 3 beverages you regularly drink? Iced coffee, crystal light, other random pre-flavored waters.
20) Current worry right now? Our move.
21) What side do you dress to? I'm not sure what this means either? If it's supposed to be one size?? Currently about an 18.
22) Favorite place to be? Home usually. Otherwise out with friends.
23) How did you bring in the New Year? Uhm.. crap. I can't remember. We did something ..
24) Where would you like to go? Arizona. I'd like to see my Mom, sister and nephew right now. I miss them all the time.
25) Name three people who will complete this? L already did, so no one else most likely. :) Unless I post it on MySpace too.
26) Whose answers do you want to read the most? Already read them. :) On L's
27) What color shirt are you wearing? hehe.. none. I'm usually a nudist when I'm at home. lol.
28). Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Ewww.. no. Definitely not. We have two sets of 1000 count sheets we got from our Wedding. LOVE them.
29) Can you whistle? Yep, but not loudly.
30) Favorite colors(s)? Blue Blue Blue! :) Silver and Black as well.
31) Could you be a pirate? What a funny question. Sure! ... Why not! As long as I don't have to go into water I can't see the bottom of.
(side thought -- we interupt this questionnaire to say HOLY CRAP we're having a massive thunderstorm!!!!!! It ROCKS!!! ..
32) What songs do you sing in the shower? None that I can think of
33) Favorite girls name? I like Samantha a lot and I've always loved Rachel and Rebekah. :) Go figure .. mine and my sister's name.
34) Favorite boy’s name? Carter, Connor, Keith are a few.
35) What’s in your pocket right now? No pockets - I'm nekkid.
36) Last thing that made you laugh? Getting stuck in a little kids innertube this afternoon. LOL .. I just HAAAD to squeeze my shoulders through it one at a time. Dave had to pull it off. lmao. I'm such a silly dork sometimes.
37) Best bed sheets as a child? No clue. I think I had all solid colored sheets.
38). Worst injury you’ve ever had? Uhm, wow. I've had a few. The most painful was probably turning my ankle. I hairline fractured the ankle bone and tore two ligaments or tendons.. don't remember which now. I've broken several bones.. but tearing the tissue was by far the worst pain I've ever ever felt. My ankle still isn't the same. If I step wrong it turns over a bit still. Very frustrating. :P
39) Do you love where you live? No, it's way to expensive and I don't like the snow. I do love the people that I'm with around here though.
40) How many TVs do you have in your house? One in our apartment. Other's throughout our family's house below us.
41) Who is your loudest friend? Literally loud? Probably Dave. He's shy at times, but he get's literally loud a lot of the time when he talks. It's a habit formed because of my father-in-law being partially deaf.
42) How many dogs do you have? None. :( We're hoping to get one when we move to Florida though! :)
43) Does anyone have a crush on you? Dunno. Possibly?
44) What are the most fun things you ever did? Hmm.. camping with 1000's of people in Lumberton, MS. (SCA thing each Spring - best times ever). Flashing in New Orleans. :) LOL. With my lovely husband and his big burly friend to protect me. Deep sea fishing on our honeymoon. (even though we didn't catch anything). Probably many other things, but I can't think of others right now.
45) What are your favorite books? I dont have any huge favorites. I read a lot, but usually only read a book once. I did love the Gunslinger series from Stephen King - even though the very end kind of sucked. And a sci-fi series that was called Mallorean I believe.. that was an awesome series that I never wanted to end.
46) What is your favorite candy? Dark Chocolate now. It's one of the only ones I can eat. Preop, Twix.
47) Favorite Team? Patriots, Red Sox, and Mariners
48). What songs do you want played at your funeral? Up to my family on the songs or if they want to do a funeral. They know that I want to be cremated though and dumped somewhere that there are horses.
49) What were you doing at 12 AM? Sleeping
50) What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? What time is it?
Thunderstorm is over now ... booooooooo!.. I love storms.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Hooray!!! I hit 50pds lost!! :)
Finally!!!!!!! :) This last month has been all about slooow losing; at least it has been compared to the weeks before that. This morning I was thrilled to see that I had hit my first big mini-goal! 50pds!! Wow!! 278pds down to 228pds. Just typing it looks cool! I took my measurements a few days ago as well. See below:
On May 12th: (the first measurements I took after surgery)
Bicep: 17.25
Neck: 15
Thigh: 32
Calf: 19.5
Saddlebags: 53.75
Hips w/ pooch: 52
Waist: 44.5
Under boobs: 39
Across boobs: 47
On July 24th: (a few days ago)
Bicep: 16.75 - loss of .5
Neck: 14.5 - loss of .5
Thigh: 30.5 - loss of 1.5
Calf: 19 - loss of .5
Saddlebags: 52 - loss of 1.75
Hips w pooch: 48.5 - loss of 3.5
Waist: 41.25 - loss of 3.25
Under boobs: 37.5 - loss of 1.5
Across boobs: 46 - loss of 1
Total inches lost so far: 14 inches. Yay! .. I don't know what the standard is but I'm super happy about it. :)
In other news, it's been a really really really difficult, stressful, and hard week for me. Probably one of the worst I've had in a very long time. It seemed that every day something more horrible or painful was happening than the day before. Several nights I thought about writing in my blog about it, but I just didn't feel like sharing the negativity I was feeling. Thursday I slipped into some very deep depression, Friday I slipped out in order to help a friend in need. (sometimes things happen for a reason). A dear friend of mine lost her mother this week. Something I can't even imagine the pain of happening; quite suddenly the sorrow I had felt all week long didn't seem that severe any longer. The wake and funeral were on Friday and Dave and I attended to offer our love and support. I felt for her; and again, I can't even imagine. My own mother is one of my best friends and currently I don't know how I would survive losing her. The thought scares me horribly. I try not to dwell on it.
On a happier note. Dave and I got a (ton* of moving stuff done yesterday. It doesn't show when we look around, but it was all things that really needed to be done. We took about 5 bags of clothes/shoes, 2 large boxes, an old aquarium set, and some boooks to a Thift Store. We donated an additional box of books to a struggling Used Book Store that we love thats located near by. We sorted through 2 large boxes of paperwork that needed to be filed or shredded (that took forever and we still have some of it to do). We also went to our storage unit and counted our current boxes to have a more accurate total to give to the moving company. (many more boxes than initially thought which will drive the price up .. but it's better to know that now).
Today is the second Get Together for my Bariatric Weight Loss group from online. We're having a pool party at one of the gals houses and I can't wait! It's going to be a blast. We all met at www.obesityhelp.com, an excellent and very supportive website of friends. (although I'm not a huge fan of the name of the site). Anyhow, we need to run -- time to grab the few things we need at the store and head to the party! :)
On May 12th: (the first measurements I took after surgery)
Bicep: 17.25
Neck: 15
Thigh: 32
Calf: 19.5
Saddlebags: 53.75
Hips w/ pooch: 52
Waist: 44.5
Under boobs: 39
Across boobs: 47
On July 24th: (a few days ago)
Bicep: 16.75 - loss of .5
Neck: 14.5 - loss of .5
Thigh: 30.5 - loss of 1.5
Calf: 19 - loss of .5
Saddlebags: 52 - loss of 1.75
Hips w pooch: 48.5 - loss of 3.5
Waist: 41.25 - loss of 3.25
Under boobs: 37.5 - loss of 1.5
Across boobs: 46 - loss of 1
Total inches lost so far: 14 inches. Yay! .. I don't know what the standard is but I'm super happy about it. :)
In other news, it's been a really really really difficult, stressful, and hard week for me. Probably one of the worst I've had in a very long time. It seemed that every day something more horrible or painful was happening than the day before. Several nights I thought about writing in my blog about it, but I just didn't feel like sharing the negativity I was feeling. Thursday I slipped into some very deep depression, Friday I slipped out in order to help a friend in need. (sometimes things happen for a reason). A dear friend of mine lost her mother this week. Something I can't even imagine the pain of happening; quite suddenly the sorrow I had felt all week long didn't seem that severe any longer. The wake and funeral were on Friday and Dave and I attended to offer our love and support. I felt for her; and again, I can't even imagine. My own mother is one of my best friends and currently I don't know how I would survive losing her. The thought scares me horribly. I try not to dwell on it.
On a happier note. Dave and I got a (ton* of moving stuff done yesterday. It doesn't show when we look around, but it was all things that really needed to be done. We took about 5 bags of clothes/shoes, 2 large boxes, an old aquarium set, and some boooks to a Thift Store. We donated an additional box of books to a struggling Used Book Store that we love thats located near by. We sorted through 2 large boxes of paperwork that needed to be filed or shredded (that took forever and we still have some of it to do). We also went to our storage unit and counted our current boxes to have a more accurate total to give to the moving company. (many more boxes than initially thought which will drive the price up .. but it's better to know that now).
Today is the second Get Together for my Bariatric Weight Loss group from online. We're having a pool party at one of the gals houses and I can't wait! It's going to be a blast. We all met at www.obesityhelp.com, an excellent and very supportive website of friends. (although I'm not a huge fan of the name of the site). Anyhow, we need to run -- time to grab the few things we need at the store and head to the party! :)
Monday, July 14, 2008
Blah
I haven't felt much like writing these last couple of days. I thought I'd at least stop by my "blogger dashboard" and say that I'm very bleh feeling.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Emotional - what a day.
Today was a perfect example of how emotional I get sometimes. I will say that I had good reason. Dave and I's move to Florida is coming up quickly, right now the official date is August 26th. For the first time today I typed that it's only about 6 weeks away and writing it brought out all the fear feelings again and the sadness over leaving.
I've worked in my position at my office for five years now and I'm very happy to say that the company is letting me telecommute from Florida so that I don't have to leave the company. In my time at the company I've moved up the chain through 3 positions and met so many wonderful people. Several of which I've known for the full 5 years and have a strong attachment to. One of those people, I totally sweet gal I know, came over and left a silly note for me on my desk this morning. I laughed and went over to get her but on the way the sadness of it hit me; that there'll be no more silly notes on my desk, that I can't walk over to her and joke around, that we can't go outside for the occasional sneaky-smoke, that I can't go to the bar after work with her for a drink .......annnnnnnd the tears came on big time. Not a very easy thing to hide, deal with, or be comfortable with in an office with more than 3000 people when you're in a leadership position! My friend and I disappeared outside for a bit for hugs, sneaky-smoke, and a talk and afterwards I hid in my cubby-hole of a desk until I got my emotions back under control. Tomorrow I have a 1 on 1 with my boss and I'm going to make it fairly clear that I don't want a goodbye / see-ya-later party at work. I know for a fact that I'll do nothing but cry through the whole thing. I'm a total sap and when it comes to facing the fact that I'm leaving several friends and people I'm close to, I just know I won't hold it together well.
On a happy note, my friend Barbara that I spoke about in a previous post is coming into Boston tomorrow for a visit! Hooray!!! I can't wait to see her. She's going to meet me at my office, we'll head to my place to change, and then it's into Boston for dinner and a couple of drinks. No big alcohol for me, maybe 1 Bloody Mary, for now that stuff is a big no no to stay away from mostly. Besides, we have to get up and work together in my office the next day. :) I don't think I mentioned in yesterday's post that Barbara and I met when I started training her as a member of my work team in the Windsor, CT office.
It's late and I'm off to bed.
I've worked in my position at my office for five years now and I'm very happy to say that the company is letting me telecommute from Florida so that I don't have to leave the company. In my time at the company I've moved up the chain through 3 positions and met so many wonderful people. Several of which I've known for the full 5 years and have a strong attachment to. One of those people, I totally sweet gal I know, came over and left a silly note for me on my desk this morning. I laughed and went over to get her but on the way the sadness of it hit me; that there'll be no more silly notes on my desk, that I can't walk over to her and joke around, that we can't go outside for the occasional sneaky-smoke, that I can't go to the bar after work with her for a drink .......annnnnnnd the tears came on big time. Not a very easy thing to hide, deal with, or be comfortable with in an office with more than 3000 people when you're in a leadership position! My friend and I disappeared outside for a bit for hugs, sneaky-smoke, and a talk and afterwards I hid in my cubby-hole of a desk until I got my emotions back under control. Tomorrow I have a 1 on 1 with my boss and I'm going to make it fairly clear that I don't want a goodbye / see-ya-later party at work. I know for a fact that I'll do nothing but cry through the whole thing. I'm a total sap and when it comes to facing the fact that I'm leaving several friends and people I'm close to, I just know I won't hold it together well.
On a happy note, my friend Barbara that I spoke about in a previous post is coming into Boston tomorrow for a visit! Hooray!!! I can't wait to see her. She's going to meet me at my office, we'll head to my place to change, and then it's into Boston for dinner and a couple of drinks. No big alcohol for me, maybe 1 Bloody Mary, for now that stuff is a big no no to stay away from mostly. Besides, we have to get up and work together in my office the next day. :) I don't think I mentioned in yesterday's post that Barbara and I met when I started training her as a member of my work team in the Windsor, CT office.
It's late and I'm off to bed.
Monday, July 7, 2008
Friends
I've been lucky to have several throughout my life. Many people who have made a difference by being there for me, helping me through a hard time, or just being that friend that is awesome to hang out and party with. Sadly some have been lost and even more sad is that some have been lost due to some form of extreme betrayal that I won't get into here - not now anyway. Happily, several I still have and I love and adore them all.
Sometimes you come across a new and very special friend that you have an immediate and awesome connection with, someone that just gets you, and tonight there's one specific person that I think about entirely when referring to this. Love ya B!
She and I come from very similar backgrounds, we share interests in the same things, I would swear sometimes we share the same brain, and from the first time we spoke we had an immediate connection that has only gotten stronger over the last couple of months. I told her within the first 2 weeks of knowing her that I felt like we must be soul sisters and I believe it now more than ever. I know I'd do all I could to protect her in any situation and I know she'll always be a person that I can laugh and be silly with. I know that if I need a shoulder to cry on some night or day she'll always listen and I know that if I just need someone to keep me company, even if it's on the phone, she'll always be there. I can only hope that she knows I would do all of the above and more for her at any time. Some might call me foolish to put that kind of faith in someone so quickly -- especially given my past -- but there are some circumstances you come across in life where you just know that it's the way it's supposed to be. This friendship is one of those things.
Tonight we laughed ourselves silly talking about TV shows, blogs, our work boyfriends(I'll explain sometime), pictures, etc. During one of those TV shows we were watching, we had moments of sitting in silence on the phone, just watching the show, and it was great! It's hard to explain - but I think I heard it said once that the way you can tell if you have a really really good and close relationship (with a friend / bf / husband / family / etc), is that while you can have an intellectual conversation with them, or a funny conversation when them, you can also sit in silence and enjoy just hanging out with each other.
B, if you ever read this, it may be cheeeeeeezy, but it's a blog all about you! You're freaking awesome and I'm thrilled beyond thrilled that we met! :)
Sometimes you come across a new and very special friend that you have an immediate and awesome connection with, someone that just gets you, and tonight there's one specific person that I think about entirely when referring to this. Love ya B!
She and I come from very similar backgrounds, we share interests in the same things, I would swear sometimes we share the same brain, and from the first time we spoke we had an immediate connection that has only gotten stronger over the last couple of months. I told her within the first 2 weeks of knowing her that I felt like we must be soul sisters and I believe it now more than ever. I know I'd do all I could to protect her in any situation and I know she'll always be a person that I can laugh and be silly with. I know that if I need a shoulder to cry on some night or day she'll always listen and I know that if I just need someone to keep me company, even if it's on the phone, she'll always be there. I can only hope that she knows I would do all of the above and more for her at any time. Some might call me foolish to put that kind of faith in someone so quickly -- especially given my past -- but there are some circumstances you come across in life where you just know that it's the way it's supposed to be. This friendship is one of those things.
Tonight we laughed ourselves silly talking about TV shows, blogs, our work boyfriends(I'll explain sometime), pictures, etc. During one of those TV shows we were watching, we had moments of sitting in silence on the phone, just watching the show, and it was great! It's hard to explain - but I think I heard it said once that the way you can tell if you have a really really good and close relationship (with a friend / bf / husband / family / etc), is that while you can have an intellectual conversation with them, or a funny conversation when them, you can also sit in silence and enjoy just hanging out with each other.
B, if you ever read this, it may be cheeeeeeezy, but it's a blog all about you! You're freaking awesome and I'm thrilled beyond thrilled that we met! :)
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Catching up
I've been meaning to write more often, really really I have, but life has been incredibly busy and a bit stressful recently. I suppose the stress part would be all the more reason to write a bit more. :)
So .. I'm taking the time today to write quite a bit and catch up on a couple things that have happened recently.
1st - My weight loss:
Most know who are reading that I had a gastric bypass on April 21st, thats uhmmm, about 10 weeks ago now. As of this morning I've lost 37 pounds so far. WooHoo!!!! Everything else is going fairly well. I've had what some refer to as a 'grouchy pouch' the last couple of weeks, but this would probably start to settle down if I stopped trying to push some of the foods that my tummy just doesn't seem to except. For example, Protein bars: excellent source of my needed protein, some great ones low carb, low calorie, low sugar, low fat -- but my stomach hates them. I keep trying a few different ones and honestly I should really give that up. Roast Beef: *Any Kind* not just deli, but also cooked and sliced; who knows why but it makes me incredibly sick. Tummy hates it! .. I do fine with ground beef, steak, pot roast -- but roast beef -- the stomach will have none of it! .. so after the 3rd try I'm totally giving it up. (for now at least, maybe I'll retry in a couple of months - that's how the docs say to do it).
Part of this surgery is learning the different ways that my body will react and deal with things. Perfect example are the foods above. Another would be that I used to love to gulp down water, now I know that I need to drink it fairly slowly. Gulping water doesn't work when my little stomach can't keep up with draining the water out the other side.
I'm still very happy with my decision, even with the few struggles that I've had on and off. It hasn't been easy by any means, but I don't think any kind of weight loss is, no matter what way you approach it from.
2nd - Our move to Florida:
It's coming up and it's coming up quickly!!! The good news, a lot of my anxiety about going has gone away. In fact, I'm actually starting to get somewhat excited about going. (go figure) It's a new adventure, we'll be close to the boys, and the cost of living is going to be so much easier to manage! We found our apartment that we'll be living in. The complex has a site at http://www.waterchaseapts.com/ for anyone who's curious. We're still unsure of the floor plan we'll have as we need to wait until August to know the exact availability, but it will definitely be one of the 2 bedroom floor plans. Ideally we'd like the last one on the list, "The Royal Palm". I'm going to *love* having a washer/dryer in the actual apartment and I really like the layout.
Ok so not a super long post, but at least a couple of updates are provided.
So .. I'm taking the time today to write quite a bit and catch up on a couple things that have happened recently.
1st - My weight loss:
Most know who are reading that I had a gastric bypass on April 21st, thats uhmmm, about 10 weeks ago now. As of this morning I've lost 37 pounds so far. WooHoo!!!! Everything else is going fairly well. I've had what some refer to as a 'grouchy pouch' the last couple of weeks, but this would probably start to settle down if I stopped trying to push some of the foods that my tummy just doesn't seem to except. For example, Protein bars: excellent source of my needed protein, some great ones low carb, low calorie, low sugar, low fat -- but my stomach hates them. I keep trying a few different ones and honestly I should really give that up. Roast Beef: *Any Kind* not just deli, but also cooked and sliced; who knows why but it makes me incredibly sick. Tummy hates it! .. I do fine with ground beef, steak, pot roast -- but roast beef -- the stomach will have none of it! .. so after the 3rd try I'm totally giving it up. (for now at least, maybe I'll retry in a couple of months - that's how the docs say to do it).
Part of this surgery is learning the different ways that my body will react and deal with things. Perfect example are the foods above. Another would be that I used to love to gulp down water, now I know that I need to drink it fairly slowly. Gulping water doesn't work when my little stomach can't keep up with draining the water out the other side.
I'm still very happy with my decision, even with the few struggles that I've had on and off. It hasn't been easy by any means, but I don't think any kind of weight loss is, no matter what way you approach it from.
2nd - Our move to Florida:
It's coming up and it's coming up quickly!!! The good news, a lot of my anxiety about going has gone away. In fact, I'm actually starting to get somewhat excited about going. (go figure) It's a new adventure, we'll be close to the boys, and the cost of living is going to be so much easier to manage! We found our apartment that we'll be living in. The complex has a site at http://www.waterchaseapts.com/ for anyone who's curious. We're still unsure of the floor plan we'll have as we need to wait until August to know the exact availability, but it will definitely be one of the 2 bedroom floor plans. Ideally we'd like the last one on the list, "The Royal Palm". I'm going to *love* having a washer/dryer in the actual apartment and I really like the layout.
Ok so not a super long post, but at least a couple of updates are provided.
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